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(no subject) [Mar. 19th, 2009|03:06 am]
I'm sitting here scratching my head. Why the hell does this story have so few reviews? It deserves at least a few more hundreds.
While I read it I found it original, and intriguing. To be honest it annoys me a little that they had to wait two years before they met again, but then I remember what the professor said about the owner of the restaurant loved his wife so much that he opened a restaurant. When I think of that my brain just goes "awwwwww".

Another thing you did great about this story was which man she would choose in the end. To be honest I always thought that she would end up with John, but sometimes you still made me wonder about Alex. And what about his ex girlfriend? it would be an idea to let the reader know why it did not work out between those two.
The ending was a little rushed, but unlike a lot of stories this did not ruin it.

All in all I think you did a great job.
Hope to read similar, but not to similar, stories form you in the future.

Love Alexandra (^_^)V
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(no subject) [Oct. 28th, 2008|02:37 pm]
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[Current Location |NTNT Trondheim]
[mood | annoyed]
[music |people talking]

So, it's been a while again...

At this point my boyfriend and I are still together, are you shocked? so am I. We are even living together the second year. To live together with someone like him can sometimes be tiring, but hey, I still like him, even if he annoys the living crap out most of the time...ok, it's not that bad...

Right now my bottom is planted on an chair in one of the computer rooms in NTNU university, Jepp I'm now a university student. Actually this is ny second year here. The reason for my visit in this room are the fact that my own pc decided to go to sleep, and it's not waking up again. This happened in the middle of a midterm paper, I lost everything... usually I now use my boyfriends lap top, since he has a fancy computer too, his lap top are seldom used anyway. the only problem I have now is the missing spell check program, as you can see I need it drastic, but his lap top is not programed into spell check, and I just found out that the schools computers are missing it too.

well, now I have an appointment with my group for another midterm paper session.
wish me good luck. I'm going to need it. Every time I meet one of the members of that group I have the strong urge to strangle the living life out of him. to be honest before I met him I knew the world were full with hateful humans...b but he, he is not evil or anything, but boy is he annoying.

(^_^)V

See you next year I think...
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review [Jun. 11th, 2008|04:56 pm]
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[Current Location |the couch]
[mood | blah]
[music |my boyfriend playing a game while yelling in the background]

This is one of my all time favorite manga.
Tokyo Crazy Paradise has a plot, characters developments, action and a bit of romance. It is not rushed, but at the same time there are not a lot of fill outs. There are unfortunate in this example some pages which misses translation (only a few), but you still get the point.
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babel [Jun. 6th, 2007|12:30 am]
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[Current Location |bed]
[mood | sleepy]

its been a while hmm.
a lot has happened during this time.
I've been to china for five weeks. actually the day I climed the Great Wall of China, my boyfriend (still the same as last time) wrote me a text message, in this the told me he loved me. this gave me a shock. to be honest when I got it I was afraid he might be feeling more than me, but still it gave me a giddy feeling, and I was happy.
even now, many months after I still question him. you see, whe have not talked, or even mention it after words. what I know is that he was drunk that night, and he has lost some of his memory from that night because of the alchohl. did he forget telling me he loved me?
and the big question is,do I feel the same way?
to be honest, when he told me, it was to early for me. I missed him a lot during my trip. but I did not love him. now my feelings won't deside on what they want. since we do not see another so often we send a lot of sms. often when I'm writng min a sms I usually write "glad i dej" on the end, sometimes I want to change those words to "elsker deg".
unfortunate I told him in the beginning, and I'm still telling him, that I do not believe I could love, and I do not believe anyone would love me. is it because of this he will not repet what he told me, or is did he write it only because he was there left alone in norway, drunk in a bar, missing me and thinking it could be love? only when he became sober did he remember that there is no way in hell he would love somebody like me.
to be hones, I time he likes me, but love?
actually from my side there can be love, still not sure, but hey, I'm still working on it.

school is over. my heart is devided in this thing to. you see, I might not miss most of the students, and in the school I hardly learned a thing. what I miss are the days just lying in bed doing nothing. or having a nice time with my boyfriend. in the beginning of febuary I even moved into his room. his roommate had quit. he was missed, even I who hardly talked to him misst him a lot, but at the same time I'm glad he dissapeard from the room. I loved the time living there.
one week after the school was over me, my boyfriend and my parent hed a hollyday in Grees. my parents loved in one apartment, and my boyfriend and me in another. this trip was mostly fun. the only downs were the "mygg". I was bitten 51 times. it itched like there was no end of the world. in the last to days we became a little sick to, but hey the bartender was a great mixer so we was never in bed all the time...even if we did spend a lot of time inside the apartment...

tomorrow I'm starting on my sommer job. Im going to take care of old people, cleaning and feeding them. it can hardly be fun. but a job is an job, and I need the money. if my mom can do it, so can I.

in the fall I hope to move, I'm trying to get into a school some other place in the country. hopefully I get in. wish me good luck, think I need it. and if I do, me and my boyfriend are going to live together. wish me good luck again.

boy is my english bad, did not realise it was this distasturus. well, right now I'm about to fall asleep. and I dont feel like correcting my writing. who ever read this just have to live with my badly written journal.
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new boyfriend [Jan. 12th, 2007|05:31 pm]
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[Current Location |toten folkehøyskole]
[mood | blank]
[music |some shitty rap]

Well here I am. Still in school and still in the shit hole toten. but hey, the friends hare at school make lt likable.

just read the last ting I posted, boy that's a long time since. even before I went to germany... now it's januar and more than halv of the school year is over. Believe it or not I going to miss this school when the year is over. Those tings I am going to miss is the possibility to sleep whenever I want (well almost). I might get some looks of the teachers if notes ny abcence, but thats almost all. and usually I watch movies during the night.

After reading the last post I noted something I had forgotten. at the wery end I said there was somebody I liked. thats now my boyfriemd. But to be honest I had some problems getting him. before the trip to germany I really liked him (/and still do). the shitty ting I found out during the trip to germany was that he had a girlfrined, even if we fooled around. he was unfateful, I was so fuckimng pissed, but I was already attatchet to the guy so I could not let him go. To be honset I feel bad about his ex because of this. in the end he and his girlfriend broke up (but not untill it had gone some time). it was his girlfriend who dumped him. does that mean that if he could deside, would he still be with his ex and not me?
we have now been togeter for almost a month, and he is really sweet to me, but I can not help to think that the only reason he is together with me is because he is not used to be without a girlfriend.

we are going to see a movie now, so I got to go. were going to see borat on big screen (with other students and friends)
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(no subject) [Sep. 17th, 2006|04:34 pm]
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[Current Location |the school computer lab]
[mood |helt ok]
[music |Jeg er ikke full, jeg er beautifull]

well what can I say. I'm bored. big shook hm.

anyway, don't know what to write, but since I have to update this. I'll just write about nothing, as I always does.

Now I've been in this school for 3 weeks (or something like that). Have shifted roommate for the third time since I came here. The first time I got a sporty, but a bimbo, as a roommate. After that I moved to a friend, while her roommate was away to fix some problems with her boyfriend. When she came back I had to move again, now I'm living with somebody I really like to live with. She say that she thinks I'm nice, and she is glad it's somebody like me she is living with. Must say I'm a little shocked to hear this, but believe me when I say that I'm not complaining. At nights we often talk for hours, and when she falls asleep, I don't wake her. Even if I make some noise. Is this a perfect roommate or what?
But, since we have lived together only for a week, well.... let's just say that no one knows what the future will bring. Hope it's happiness for the both of us, and everyone else.
Unfortunate, I know that not everyone have it as calm as we do. This morning, in the hall, just outside our room, there was a bitch fight.

going to germany tomorrow,¨
think it will be a boring trip since I've been there before. Beside, there is not much to look at.
But on the other had, at lest I'm going away from Toten. One of the most farm fulled place in Norway.
To be honest I did not think it was possible to have that many farms collected on one place. And now I do.
Unfortunate there is nothing I can do about it.

When it comes to the persons here at the school I go to, they are mostly ok, but the inhabitants of toten are just...arg... cant even come up with the nastiest word to describe them.
How the hell can anybody be that stupid?!!

As to why I do not like them,
well....let us just say they do like to fight, and since we at Toten (Folkehøy) school is not from there, they think it's funny to mess with us.
This is of course the boys we are talking about. They cant even see that here is almost no one from the male sex at this school (unfortunate).
We are about 60 students, and less than 15 is male.

It would be a big exaggeration to say I was disappointed when I first notated this.

But hey, life goes on, beside I have somebody I like. So you do not hear me complaining... at lest not that much...

Think this will be it for now, I'm a little to bored to write more.
Wish me good luck in Germany (Berlin).
Think I'll need it.
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(no subject) [Sep. 17th, 2006|04:10 pm]
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[Current Location |schools computer lab]
[mood | tired]
[music |Guns'n roses]

well what can I say. I'm bored. big shook hm.

anyway, don't know what to write, but since I have to update this. I'll just write about nothing, as I always does.

going to germany tomorrow,¨
think it will be a boring trip since I've been there before. Beside, there is not much to look at.
But on the other had, at lest I'm going away from Toten. One of the most farm fulled place in Norway.
To be honest I did not think it was possible to have that many farms collected on one place. And now I do.
Unfortunate there is nothing I can do about it.

When it comes to the persons here at the school I go to, they are mostly ok, but the inhabitants of toten are just...arg... cant even come up with the nastiest word to describe them.
How the hell can anybody be that stupid?!!

As to why I do not like them,
well....let us just say they do like to fight, and since we at Toten (Folkehøy) school is not from there, they think it's funny to mess with us.
This is of course the boys we are talking about. They cant even see that here is almost no one from the male sex at this school (unfortunate).
We are about 60 students, and less than 15 is male.

It would be a big exaggeration to say I was disappointed when I first notated this.

But hey, life goes on, beside I have somebody I like. So you do not hear me complaining... at lest not that much...

Think this will be it for now, I'm a little to bored to write more.
Wish me good luck in Germany (Berlin).
Think I'll need it.
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http://midi-nette.com/mdm/news/news-e.html [Aug. 14th, 2006|12:02 am]
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[Current Location |my bed]
[mood |wee]
[music |moi dix mois]

Hallo

To be honest I do not think anybody is going to read this, but what the heck, I'll write anyway.

The reason as to way I decide to send this letter is one part just for fun, and one part because I really just wanted to say hi, nice to..eh...write to you. So now you know, you even have fans in the most North country in the world.
The reason as to who this letter is dedicated Mana is not because he is my favorite (don't get mad at me), I just do not have a favorite in this group. Think it's a little wrong to put people I do not know into categories. Mana is the one I have heard the most about, so that's why I thought it would be best to write that name at the top. (Actually I thought it would be best to write the groups name...)

I'm honest to say I was a little shocked when I found put about your single (from March) and that you have just been in Germany. You see I thought Moi dix Mois was no more. Many j-rock forums talks about this group as a ex group, and have for over a year. Glad to see that it was not so. The only difference I see are a new member (hi to you too, hope you have a good time!)
Well, to whoever is reading this, sorry for this boring letter. But hey, you are the one who are reading it.(^__^)V
I'll just write a little more, so you can have a little more to read.

When it comes to this page (midi-nette.com/mdm), whoever made it, I must thank them. They did a great job. You even have a version for us who do not understand japanese. Thank you for that, if not I would not even have found a way to get past the main entrance.

Keep on with making this music, it's really special and unique. (at least for me). Hope to hear a lot of you music in the future.
And remember:
"See with your soul, not just your eyes, for the eyes only sees what the heart believes."
Wish you all the best in the future.

With a friendly goodbye
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(no subject) [Aug. 9th, 2006|11:27 pm]
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[Current Location |my bed]
[mood |pissed]
[music |non]

It's been a while has it not. . .

Today I have to WHY questions I want to ask.
1) Why can guys not just stick to be just friends?
and
2) Why do we humans feel we are superior to the rest of the animals that live in this universe?

Shall I begin to give you the reader the reason as to why I ask those questions? I think I shall, even if you do not care to understand my meaning by using those questions, or what I'm going to tell, or as many might find me nag about.

1) Why can guys not just stick to be just friends?
A couple of weeks ago I went out with a friend from High School, we were suppose to catch up before the both of us would move away. For you to understand this whole story I'll begin telling you a little about my life in High School. In class I did not belong to the beautiful popular part, to be honest I don't think my class was divided that was. Anyway what I was going to say was that in my main class there was four persons I looked upon as friends. Two girls and two boys. Since the girls are of no importance in the question of why guys can not just be friend I'll just skip to write about them.
If you have read one of the first updates I did you would read about the fact that me and a friend might have sex together (something we luckily did not!). This friend who asked me to have sex with him was one of those friends I had in high school. Now he is going to Dublin because of school, but he has asked me to visit him, and we write letters to another.
But he is not the one of those friends from high school I was suppose to write about, it's the other one which concerns me.

As I said earlier we met up to catch up, and we did. We talked for hours to be exact. But then he dropped the bomb. He liked me. Now I was not to get him wrong, he loved his girlfriend, but he liked me!!!! WHAT THE HELL IS HE THINKING!! He and his girlfriend was even living together. In the beginning I thought he liked me as a friend, as I liked him. BUT as we kept on talking it became obvious to be the like he meant was not the same I meant. And I as the friend I was I did not tell him straight in the face what I thought about it. I went along with the discussion, he asked what I thought about sex, raising children, belief and a lot of other things, and I answered.

Now some of it can be blamed on me, you see the last time before this I was at a party with those friends from school + his girlfriend (2 weeks before), and at that party I gave everyone of them a present and a letter. It was a personal letter dedicated to each one of them. In his letter I wrote "If I'm ever going to get married, I want to marry someone like you". What I meant by that was that I wanted someone with his personality, but not him. You see, he is a romantic, he knows how to make a girl feel good about herself, he had the same problems as me what it came to subject at school, he is generous and he has the same interest as I have when it comes to Asia.
One of the reasons he told he about him liking me, was because I'm going away on school to a different part of the country. You see, he is worried I'm going to get myself a boyfriend down there. In one way it seems like he is thinking of me as back-up if it does not work out with his girlfriend.
Believe me when I say that I have NO plannings to be ANYBODIES back-up!!!
Beside I do not think of him in a sexual way.
So even if boys can not be just friends, girls can, and I'm definitely of the female sex.


Now to my other question:

2) Why do we humans feel we are superior to the rest of the animals that live in this universe?
To be honest I do feel that I'm superior to animals such as bugs and fishes, but I usually get pissed when I see animals treated badly. Especially cats since I myself have two cats, and to my family they are my brother and sister, not some animals we keep as pets. Of course they are pets, but we could never harm them.

Today me and my mom found a stranded cat, I might add that the cat was only about a couple of month's old. We fed her, and I let her sleep in my bed. Unfortunate we both knew that we could no keep her since the other cats we had wound not accept her. When my cousin can on a visit I was taking the cat out so she could go on a toilet, my cousin saw the cat and told us a story about it. The cat had no owner, and yesterday she saved it from some kids who were throwing rocks at it, they even had a knife, but my cousin saved it before the cat became damaged. (at least to much). Luckily my cousin wanted the cat, and she took it home with her. But there is a problem there too, she already have two cats, and those are not found of the new family member. In the end I hope that everything will work out. And that the cat who has had a hell of a live have finally found some peace on this earth.



Aint the world a beautiful place....can you see the iorny?

well that's all for now, in the future I will have more things to complain about, so untill then...
good bye and sweet dreams (^__^)V
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birthday!!! 19 years [Mar. 21st, 2006|12:59 pm]
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[mood | ecstatic]
[music |+D'espers Ray - maverick]

ah, today is my brithday (^_^)V

just wanted to say it, even if I do not feeli like it. even my mom forgot... well most of my friends remembered so I don't mind to much...
I've only gotten one present, the Dir en Grey - withering to death. (and she also bought me the Tokio Hotell cd, when she was i germany). I'm so gratful for this, if she had not bought them I proble would never own them, and now I include the rest of my life. ¨
wonder if I'll get something lather, hope so... I love present... "smiling like a little kid"

anyho, that's all I felt like writing now.
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(no subject) [Mar. 13th, 2006|09:26 am]
I thought it would be best if I removed this, I do not think it would be right if I posted info here about myself.
sorry, it there is something you want to know, just give ne a mail, or leave a massage
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I crashed today [Feb. 22nd, 2006|08:57 pm]
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[mood | afraid]
[music |none]

Have you ever done something you are afraid to tell anybody? and cases where you have no idea how to solve?

I have done many stupid things in my life, one of the was today. I crashed into another car. Nothing serious, but it left scratches on both cars, and I freaked out (well, almost) I made my friend that was sitting in the car with me promise that she will never tell. What happened was that I was parked, and while driving out from the parking lawn, I scratched the car next to me. And not small scratch, a big one. Boy was I afraid...and still am...
I've only had my drivings license for 6 months. Since I panicked I drove away without leaving a note with my phone number, in Norway there is a law that demands you to leave a note, if not you can go to jail it the damage is really big, or get a bill + you have to pay for the damage. I know that leaving was stupid of me, and I know that it is no excuse but I'm young (18) and I'm broke.
When I came home (it was my families car), I told my mom that it happened wile I was shopping at the mall. If she believed me or not I'm not sure, my dad will be the bigger problem. ah I'm so afraid right now. Hope no one will find out, and that the one I drove into has insurance, of course he/she has, its a law that to. But I hope the insurance company will give the owner a full cover.
My families car was damaged at the front, and my mom estimated that the damage on the car will almost cost my family (in dollars) 1500 $. Just perfect is it not, my family has a little financial crisis, and we are trying to save money...because I'm going on a private school next year, and I'm going to china!!! guilty!!!!

Do you want to know something funny about everything, right now I'm studding law, and in the future I want to be a police man, my next choice is to be a lawyer, so that I can put people like me behind bars, or make the pay a lot of money for the damage they have coasted the innocent people of this planet.

shall I make a small list over stupid things I have done in my life?

1) crashing the car
2) the fire alarm
accidentally pushed the button for the fire alarm in school (in the last semester), almost 2000 students, teachers and others had to evacuate. the police came, the fire trunks came, and one ambulance. If I had been caut I would had to pay ca 1200$. It was an accident!!!
3)teacher kicking me
telling the students in my class that one ot the teacher had kicked me wile she yelled at me. Because of what I said it all became a big deal, many of my friends told me straight to my face that I was lying. To be honest the teacher did not kick me, but she did grab me by the hand, and pushed me so that I fell on the ground. Where she grabbed me I had bruises for days. I do not know why I said that she kicked me, but I was pissed on her. (in Norway its not allowed for teacher to use violent on students)
4) broke a window
I broke one of the windows wilde playing baseball at school, this I did not get yelled of because it was meant to happen.
5) kicking the glass out of a door
I often open doors with my feet, is anybody exits a door before me, I hold it open with a foot, and then pushes it open (still with the foot). This happened twice in my last school, I stopped the door, or tried to, but my foot went straight true, and the glass fell out. Luckily none if my friends told the teachers.
6) breaking the glass door
once when I was young I was pissed off at my mom, and true one of my shoos at the door home, and it smashed the glass door.
7) my sisters door
I was pissed at my sister, and I with my fetish with shoos true one at her bedroom door, a part of the door fell off.


Now, I have done a lot more stupid things in my life, but those I wrote where the one I could remember without thinking. maybe I'll update this list another time, but right now I want to watch some amine.
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sex and friends [Feb. 1st, 2006|12:34 am]
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[mood | confused]
[music |radio]

I just have to write this down before I sleep...

a friend of me asked me to have sex with him today. we were talking on the net,
around that subject...and then he asked me. to be honest it did not come as an shock, but when he asked...I want to, and I have almost given him a green go, but I'm afraid it will ruin our friendship, or that we will act different around another.
He said we could be friends with certan advances. see we both like somebody else...
as I'm writing this we are discussing it, we might do it home at my house.
Ah, I'm nervous...its the fist time I might be doing something like this.

and at the same time, I'm talking to one of my ex'es he wants a videotape of me in the shower, touching myself. I have not made any! it began as a joke, but I'm beginning to think he is serious too...
naha, proble nothing to worry about
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the new beginning [Jan. 29th, 2006|06:17 pm]
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This is my second diary, the reason this one exist is that I can have a place where I do not need to watch what I'll write.
I also want this so I can do things I can not on the other one.
Hope I'll find you usefull (my demon diary)...

Well that's all for now, going to fix a little more now...
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